A Perturbed Mind: Part II

“NO”, I said to myself angrily, this will not happen to me. I will not let this happen to me. But alas! What can I do, the feeling of helplessness started to bog me down. I tried painfully to gather myself up, tried to think hard about the limited options I had, very very limited indeed

Thinking of options I suddenly realized the flight, if on time, should have landed by now. Taking deep breaths to keep myself calm I dialed the number… Beep..Beep and silent, well BSNL never changes whatever the situation. Constant redials did not help either and a feeling of frustration and fear again began to cloud my mind. NO! I had to talk to her, I had to at any cost...I told myself. Five minutes and forty redials later my hands began to tremble and eyes began to dampen AGAIN. In the mirror I saw a frail helpless figure as if waiting to crumble and suddenly broke down. The heart wanted to cry loudly and say “my beloved I love you and I need you in every breath of my life”, but it kept to silent moans and teary eyes.

The tears were a relief for the heavy heart and clouded mind, as if they had lost some flab. I then realized I had not called her friend yet…in a split second I leaped towards the cellphone and dialed her number. Finally the phone rang, to pacify my anxiety, however it went unanswered. But even before my thought devoid tired mind could conjure up some bad thoughts my cellphone rang. It was her friend’s call.

Then came the shocker,”there was a blast at a location fifteen minutes before they were to cross it”. I was zapped by the revelation and frankly for the first time other people’s safety aspects crossed my mind. I was now coming back to senses; thankfully a wakening call had come.

Then began the process of analyzing the various paths to tread, keeping the safety of every individual in mind. I made up my mind firmly and dialed "the friend". Thankfully she picked! My suggestion was to let her friend be at the airport and she remains at home until things settle down. However being the good caring buddies they are my suggestion was brushed aside as a speck of dust. She was already on the way to airport as such an option was unimaginable to her. According to her version ‘we will not be at peace until we get her back home ‘, a true friend indeed. Even fervent appeals failed to budge her and I gave in.


Never had I acquainted fear from so close. So close but yet so far. Then came another reassuring call, It was HER! For the first time in life a “Hello” had such a soothing effect and I unconsciously uttered “I love you”. She, having known me for so long, smiled and assured everything is fine and safe. Her tone sounding as if she was reading my thoughts all throug by telepathy. While I tried hard to cover up my feelings of fear and anxiety, she kept on reassuring me. Suddenly out of the blue I asked her “Will you marry me?” She just smiled. It was as if my heart had overpowered me and speaking all by itself. It insisted “Please marry me”, she again smiled and finally spoke softly “ Yes, anytime you say: but please relax I am fine”. The softness in her voice and the reassuring tone made me long for her more. I felt really lucky to meet such a wonderful person in life.

Finally her friends reached airport and took her to the safe confines of their home. I kept on talking to her until she reached home safely, and did not let her tread out even for a minute for the next two days. Too bossy, people might think, well maybe I am, because it’s my life and I am the best caretaker.

My story had a happy ending, unfortunately everyone was not that lucky and my heart goes out to the bereaved people who lost their dear ones.

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Being Smrita said…
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January 9, 2009 at 12:53 AM
Anuj said…
superb, amazing....am i to believe there is truth in ur post???...
January 18, 2009 at 5:42 AM
rajnish said…
Hmmmm....Straight from the heart.
Nice!!
February 10, 2009 at 10:43 PM
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